Few weeks ago, I had this conversation with the best friend:
Me: You know, things will be different if I remarry. It will be difficult to meet up.
Him: No it wont. Hmm, probably. We wont be able to see each other and hang out as much as we both want to. Remember there was a time when we hanged out a lot, when I had more time? (before he started having jet-setting life-style)
It has been a week after the bombshell was dropped. I have been given ample time to decide. My life has been progressing well, especially career wise. Yet I owe my daughter a chance to try living in Malaysia. My Sifus are against with the idea. They believe I have a shot to make my mark here. Getting a job back home is easy, what matters is finding one which balances my role as a mother and a career driven woman.
I am prepared to let go of what I build so far here to give my daughter a chance to be happier. Then again, like my brother said, "I dont want you to sacrifice what you have for uncertain future and unfulfilled expectations."
The bombshell is certainly not making my decision easier, especially when I have many reasons to say yes.
Give me a reason to say no...
It rained heavily tonight, perhaps marking the commencement of the holy month. A few years ago exactly in the same month, when I faced the most difficult decision to make, I asked The One Above to give me guidance on what to do. It was the lowest point of my life. Now, again when I am torn for a good reason, I hope He can give me some answers....