Zombie bride

For over a week I disconnected myself from the outside world. Well, not entirely true. I just detached myself from blogosphere, emails and anything that fell under the same category. Some knew the reason for my absence and probably would do the same if they were in my shoes. When you are aware you have limited time with your loved ones, you’ll want to spend every single minute with them. If it meant cutting down time for myself and spend more with my loved ones, why not?

Although I was a bit crushed when I could not watch New Moon, no matter how much I emphasised on the sexy vampires and hot werewolves. I should have told that there were beautiful girls then perhaps a trip to the cinema was possible.

At least I was guaranteed home-cooked meals every day. I suppose it was a fair trade and it was nice to be pampered. I should have had that in the prenup.

Anyway, another glitch occurred a few days ago. I am currently under the weather and the past few nights have been a struggle. Thankfully the persistent cough only occur night time, thus I am able to continue doing my daily routine. However, I must say the lack of sleep (we are talking max of 3-4 hours every day!) has resulted me feeling like a zombie. I hope my current state as shown below is only temporary:

I am praying hard for a decent sleep tonight. Bonne nuit!

The love story so far

If there's a crisis, you don't freeze, you move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you've seen worse. You've survived worse, and you know we'll survive too. You say you're all dark and twisty. It's not a flaw, it's a strength. It makes you who you are. I'm not gonna get down on one knee, I'm not gonna ask a question. I love you, and I wanna spend the rest of my life, with you.




To love each other, even when we hate each other
Nobody walks out. No matter what happens
That we'll take care of each other, even when we're old, and smelly, and senile
This is forever

*Ms B and Mini B would like to thank their beautiful friends for their love, thoughts and support.*

Chocolat

“For a person who is about to make some big changes in her life, you are extremely calm. In fact, you are more stressed out on getting this deal done.”

Work has kept me occupied to the extent that my sense of feeling has gone numb. It is to no surprise that I’m being mistaken as ice queen at times. How can one be excited on something when she has many on her mind? It’s like celebrating your 21st birthday on your crucial exam or being told that you nailed that job while attending a funeral, although the latter seems dramatic.

Work is indeed a sanctuary for me to disconnect myself when needed.

So when I left the office not long ago, somehow the emotions that were deprived from making appearance started to surface. The twenty minute cab journey felt twice as long and I was again lost in my own thoughts. Forget about butterflies. It felt more like dinosaurs doing their salsa in my tummy.

Slowly the pictures of my loved ones emerged inside my head, making a slideshow accompanied with melancholy songs. I could see their smile and sense the warmth of their love. It took me awhile to realise that it may not be as scary as it seemed. If it is meant to be, things flow in a click. I suppose I need to trust the One above and let myself walk along this path.

While I try to keep my dam intact, let me share you what I grabbed today. I was looking for ideas to get something as a token of appreciation and my ten minute escape from work resulted to this:

I hope I got enough for everyone. I will use tomorrow for the much needed body TLC. Darn! I’ve already missed part of my beauty sleep tonight.

Six pence

It was another roller-coaster week with the young lady down with an almost-full-blown flu. Sleepless nights were expected and to make matters worse, I had another deal due by the end of the week. Somehow all those years of multi-tasking came in handy and we both survived. Phew!

As she was feeling bright and shine yesterday, we thought it’d be nice to go out and chill. Thankfully the weather was on our side, at least during the day. It started to rain in the evening and today, it looks like it’s a storm out there. Perhaps it is nothing compare to the Norwegian weather but for this part of the world, it’s close enough to be considered a storm.

Where was I? Ah, yes. While we were making our way to the nearest bus stop close to the famous park, something popped inside my head and I asked the young lady, “would you like to catch a falling leaf?”

Of course the suggestion was welcomed with a wide grin and sparkling eyes. There we were, running under the trees, trying our best to catch one. At one point we bumped into each other, making the whole thing looked silly. In between our giggles and laughter, I couldn’t help feeling how much fun we were having. I could sense people around us were smiling and somewhat envied our silliness, as if life was free from troubles.

Then, at the mall, there was a stage which replicated a music recording studio complete with props and anyone could come up and take photo. The young lady wanted to give it ago and she picked the guitar. I placed the strap on her shoulders and she was ready to be the next rock star. *grins* Her ‘band’ had another guitarist and drummer, both girls and younger than her. I think they had a singer too, a toddler who wanted to be close to his sister on stage.

It was definitely a good day and the crazy week we had seemed to have faded away. As I count my blessing, I look forward to a new journey...

Something old, something new,
Something borrowed, something blue,
And silver six pence in your shoe.

Picture equation

I am trying my best to avoid being this:

and this:



but it seems challenging. Maybe a cup of lemsip and a good night sleep will do the trick, as well as minimising human interaction.

Hmm, perhaps Edward Cullen and Jacob can kick some feel-good factor. Eh, I forgot. I thought I fancied Paul more.

Definitely it is time for stress reliever.

*Ms B is glad that her mini B made a speedy recovery after 2 days of high fever. She's truly a super girl.*

What about now?

Of late, I’ve been following a new series, FlashForward. I am unsure if it qualifies as ‘following’ as I missed the first two episodes and used the ‘on-demand’ to catch up. Occasionally when I’m too tired, my mind tends to wander while watching and I end up using the online to recap.

Well, at least I have something to occupy my time until Mentalist season 2 kicks off. The series have good looking asian men i.e. agent Cho and agent Demetri, both are Koreans if I’m not mistaken. I bet my Korean lover friends/readers will start googling if they have not heard of them. *grin*

What’s the relevance of this series and my post? Something has been irking me. Not too much but enough for me to share with friends (and you) about it. Because of my background, my decisions have always been made after thorough calculation. Ok, I lied. I had some situations where my actions were made on the spur of the moment but they were a small fraction as a whole. I mean, can you resist a good bargain on handbags and shoes? *grins*

As much as I feel glad that people are keeping tab on me, some questions should be dropped. Maybe they are concerned but there is a line between caring and putting your nose in where it’s not wanted.

So, instead of analysing the decision and situation, I wish they try to be me and see it from my perspective. Try putting on the “hat and shoes” and take a test drive. Only then they may be able to understand whether the option is safe or risky, good or bad.

As I told a friend recently, people around you usually say that they will be by your side no matter what but the reality is, we lead our own life. We have our own worries to handle and put our loved ones’ wellbeing before others. Often, it is those who are close to your heart who will be there through thick and thin, or to be precise, for the rest of your life.

In Flashforward, they are caught up with what will happen in six months time that they stop thinking about the present. If we worry about the future, of which in the series refers to someone dying, a wife with a new lover etc, we stop living for the moment. The future hasn’t happened and despite whatever consequences it may be, if we worry too much about it, are we not wasting our present time?

Thus, I choose to believe in my dreams, in the presence of those who are close to my heart.

“So live your life. Live everyday and know that the future is unwritten; make the most of it.”

Dreams come true

Take a look at yourself in the mirror, who do you see looking back?
Is it the person you wanna be?
Or is there someone else you were meant to be, the person you should have been but just fell short of.
Is someone telling you that you can't or you won't? Because you can.
Believe that love is out there.
And believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do.
Sometimes happiness doesn't come from money or fame or power. Sometimes happiness comes from good friends and family, and from the quiet nobility of leading a good life.
So take a look in that mirror and remind yourself to be happy, because you deserve to be. Believe that.
And believe that dreams come true everyday, because they do
~One Tree Hill~

Fairy tales pretty much form our life, from the start of the day until it’s time to say good night. A trip to a nearby shop often includes ponies and unicorn, occasionally a pagasus tags along. The last time I was told we had four ponies and a handful of unicorns, all live in a barn opposite our home. It keeps them warm during this cold weather and I’m sure they’ll enjoy its comfort when winter arrives.
At home, the role of house elves is commonly used and that gives her the ticket to tidy the place. She would love to do the dishes but I feel she needs to grow a few more inches before I allow her to do such. At the moment, she has been given the permission to grab her own snacks for tea and sometimes breakfast if I’m forced to stay in bed due to unavoidable circumstances. She happily takes yoghurt or cheese strings from the fridge or butter buns on the kitchen top.

Our morning walk to the school will be incomplete without greetings from squirrels, often trying to dash the road to explore another garden. One particular squirrel has caught our attention as it is always at the same spot and crosses the road just before we reach there. We have yet to name it as the young lady is unsure if it’s a male or female. So we just call it ‘squirrel’, so much for our creativity. We say ‘good morning squirrel’ and have a decent conversation with it, from school stuff to fruit of the day.

As it is autumn, leaves have started to fall which has led her to scrutinise her view to catch one. It seems lady luck will be on our side should she succeed. Sometimes she finds a penny on the floor and quickly picks, saying today will be a good day for both of us.

This is our life, where fairy tales come true, where magic and miracles exist. Sometimes it only needs a little bit of imagination and it takes away all the pain, sorrow, bad dreams...

If this was a fairy tale, just like Cinderella, I have yet to find a pair of glass slippers to attend the ball.