What did you want to be?

"I ask Jules if she'd like to do that, but she remains committed to a career in the ballerina industry. "I wanted to be a ballerina when I was 5," I say, pirouetting to the refrigerator for a couple of eggs. "So what stopped you?""

I am sure eventually we will be asked the same question by our lil ones. I cant remember what I wanted to be when I was a child. Actually, there are many things of my childhood that I cant remember. Perhaps it is my ability to block certain memories. One thing for sure, whatever was related to my late grand parents, I seem to remember every single details. The trip to Pasar Tani near the river banks, daily visits to the wet market where we normally had our breakfast, the making of pickle sator (petai), etc.

I have been fascinated with numbers since young. I suppose my dream back then was to be anyone who sees figures on daily basis (oh yeah, ultimate nerd!).

It is different with my lil girl. She wants to be a jazz dancer. Of course, mummy dearest said that she can be whatever she wants to be once she completes her degree in architecture and starts earning her own money. See, am I smart or what? *LOL*

But then again, her interest in performing arts runs in the family. I too was a dancer, as well as a musician. I started performing when I was about her age, did almost every type of traditional and modern dance. As I entered high school, I always got to play the "man" role because of my height. When I finally got to perform as a lady, I did the candle dance (tarian lilin). Gosh! It was hard work ok, moving your butt slow and steady while balancing the candles.

My lil girl can really dance. Now this term, she gets to learn to play violin (and she still wants me to sign up piano and martial arts lessons!). Busy girl indeed!

As we grow older, our dreams change and we set a practical target. Some dreams are shattered but we pick up and move forward, using whatever information and resources to make it work. But hey, it is good to fantasize once in a while.

"You make the choices you make based on what you know about yourself and what you think you know about the world. And sometimes the world will turn around and break your heart, but other times, a 5-year-old will saunter in with three dolls wet from their swim lesson. The five of you will sit down to blueberry muffins, and the reality of what you wound up with will suddenly seem like the only possible choice -- it just couldn't have turned out any other way. "

Full article can be found here:
Daughter causes mom to ponder 'what if?'

So what did you want to be when you were young?