Monday, September 15, 2008


Sometimes when you're young, you think nothing can hurt you, it's like being invisible... your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans, big plans... to find your perfect match... the one that completes you... but as you get older, you realise it's not always that easy... it's not until the end of your life that you realise that the plans you made were simply plans… because at the end when you're looking back instead of forward, you want to believe that you made the most of what life gave you, you want to believe that you're leaving something good behind… you want it all to have mattered.

The Sexy Professor asked about my past during one of our dinners. We’ve been friends for almost a year now. This is another yummy mummy. She may be almost a decade older than me but she looks early 30s with a slim body. Bet she drives her male students crazy. *grins*

I started sharing my stories to her. What I didn’t realise was, by going back to memory lane, tears started to roll. I told her I am fine but I suppose it did hit me that things were tough back then. Perhaps that was why I felt melancholic.

Then she said, without knowing my past, she wouldn’t have thought I had those written. For a person whom she has known for the past one year, she wouldn’t expect that I had my rough moments. “Knowing what you went through and still be where you are at this day, achieving so much in life, I salute you.” said the Sexy Professor.

Sometimes it takes another person to open your eyes and think outside the box. When she spoke those words, I realised I had a lot to chew. Yet, it never occurred to me to give up or feel that things were challenging. How could I when I have one precious angel by my side? She places her trust and faith in me.

I am thankful for my past as it led me to where I am now, with a lovely daughter and good friends to share my life with.

Ps: Of course it is a bonus when you are surrounded with yummy men. *winks*


Hazia said...

I'm with you on 'enjoying the journey.' Sometimes if we focused too much on the destination and things don't work out according to plan, we have nothing much to look back to. So, yeah, we should have fun while pursuing the important things in life. At the end of the day, it's those precious memories that we cherish:)

U.Lee said...

Hi Ms B, plans sometimes can go haywire or terbalek.
But I believe our life, our fate is controlled or ruled or fated or whatever by the MAN up there, as well stars not in alignment, ha ha.

My young days plan was never to get married till 40.
But didn't realise what a good sambal belachan and fish head curry can do to plans, arhaaa ha ha.
You just be your warm passionate self Ms B....cupid's arrow will find you, Lee.

ms curvy said...

hi ms B, yes, when we reflect our past, we will somehow say "alhamdulillah" we went through all those and survived and all were part of cabaran from Allah. Keep on moving forward..

Cosmic_GurL said...

The past can be painful when we reminisce but we are not what we are today without having to go through past experiences. I believe my past has made me a better person today and a better judge of character :)

Hannan said...

tingg tongg!
i guess this is the wake up call for me :)

p/s - touche' for the comment!

Ms B said...

Hi hazia,

There are times that things dont work out as planned but there must be a reason why. What matters is that we cherish the memories.

Ms B said...

Hi Lee,

I made many plans before and I think only a few materialised. Yet, looking now, I am content with what I have. In fact, because of some plans didnt work out, other unexpected (and better) doors open.

I look forward to this journey. *smiles*

Ms B said...

Hi ms curvy,

Reflection is always good. I believe it makes us grounded and appreciate life more, especially with our loved ones.

Ms B said...

Hi CG,

The past wont haunt us unless we want it to. Once in a while, remembering those moments can be painful but it is part of the package. It makes us strive harder. *smiles*

Ms B said...

Hi Hannan,

wake up call? arent u awake already? *grins*

Ah, no worries for the comment. Fav topic. *lol*

Anonymous said...

I'm sure the past, as tough as it was, was what moulded you into what you are today Ms B! :)

Ms B said...


Thanks dear! I'm making this path work best for me and my girl. I have learnt to smell the roses during the journey. *smiles*